My Place of Persistence

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You don’t start out writing good stuff. You start out writing crap and thinking it’s good stuff, and then gradually you get better at it. That’s why I say one of the most valuable traits is persistence.    -Octavia Butler

This is my blanket apology for potentially pointless, grammatically challenged drivel. It’s to be applied retroactively and to all future posts.

Chasing Clever is my little space in the world to write – a place that forces some accountability –  but I make no promise of it being good, entertaining, moving or grammatically correct. One day (hopefully!) but I’m a work in progress.

I spend a lot of time staring at the ‘Publish’ button asking myself why I want to throw my words out into the world. Will they make a difference? Does it matter if they make a difference?

After a first draft I ask myself if I’d be comfortable telling a family member or friend what I’ve written. This question is usually cringe-worthy, forcing me to put the piece away for another day. I am a private person so my desire to write is often at odds with my lifelong aspiration of invisibility.

Instead of clicking on ‘Publish’ I obsessively mull over where and how my writing fits. I try to work out what my focus should be – the niche all the experts say is necessary.

But, I have no niche.

I will rarely put my thoughts into a coherent order and I’ll never use words as eloquently as I’d like to, but writing is a compulsion that I’m going to give in to for now.

Chasing Clever is my place of persistence.

You’ve been warned…

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